lot of thing happened for me, not even single warning and bang, it hits so hard to the point i feel like i want to give up on life. what happened so far :
- lost 4+ years of hardwork and source of income due to small mistake
- money stuck in certain platform and they no guarantee it will be back after 6 months
- ghosted by “close friends”. realized most of them don’t care when i am at lowest
- staying in hotel and Aircon brokes two days before i checkout, and not even single compensation given
- i still highly depends on medication just to able to sleep, doctor doesnt seem to have empathy
- i have CTS (Carpal tunnel syndrome) for years and i still cannot regain my full strength back.
- my career stuck in low income level, and its hard to get new job these days
- still regularly going to hospital at least 2-3 times a week, to the point i get tired of it already
people say life is blessing, but for me life is suffering, all bad things always happened, i am not even allowed to be happy anymore.
I’m not here for the big prep talk. One of the pity reasons to hold on to life is one day when you are finally out of the wood and look back at this day, you can’t believe what you have gone through or even have forgotten how.
when i was young, i am fearless and full of energy so looking back, its easier to overcome problem back then compared to now.